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desire

  • The Transaction of Self

    Read with Pride in this powerful and poignant gay psychological drama. The Transaction of Self is the story of Julian Croft, a wealthy London executive living a perfect, curated life with his wife and family. Yet, beneath the impeccable suit lies a man drowning in silence. Julian harbors a secret desire for men, a need so dangerous he can only address it through a cold, meticulous system of paid encounters across the globe.

    From a transactional meeting in New York to a soul-baring conversation in Paris and a transformative connection in London, Julian’s double life is a high-stakes balancing act. But when his wife’s suspicions harden into an ultimatum, the walls between his two worlds crumble. Forced to confront the devastating cost—both financial and emotional—of his decades of deception, Julian must choose: confess the truth and destroy his family, or perpetuate the lie and annihilate himself.

    This is an award-winning gay fiction contender, a deep dive into the closet’s corrosive grip. More than an MM romance, it’s a gay literary novel about identity, shame, and the fragile architecture of a life built on lies. Perfect for readers of emotional MM books and LGBTQ+ fiction that explores the raw complexities of being true to oneself in a world that demands conformity. Discover one of the best MM romance-adjacent stories of the year, a heartfelt gay love story that is ultimately about learning to love the person you’ve hidden all along.

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  • Global Glue: The 90-Day Test

    Six gay couples. One paradise island. A single rule: don’t break up.

    In the ultimate test of love, twelve men from across the globe are isolated on a stunning island for a reality show. The prize is a new home, but the real challenge is resisting the sizzling chemistry with eleven other irresistible men. The rules force them apart all day, pushing them into intimate partnerships with their rivals. Alliances form, passions ignite, and loyalties are shattered.

    Witness the dramatic collapse of seemingly perfect relationships and the unexpected birth of new, powerful connections. From the passionate Italians and the stoic Nigerians to the all-American influencers and the rugged Australians, no couple is safe from the temptation and emotional turmoil.

    *Global Glue: The 90-Day Test* is a steamy, emotional rollercoaster that explores the raw reality of love under pressure. This is a story of betrayal, desire, and the heartbreaking question: is your bond strong enough to survive paradise?

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  • The Male Variation: A Novel of Love and Ballet

    In the gilded, punishing world of the Teatro Colón, eighteen-year-old Santiago Vargas is a masterpiece of contradictions: a powerfully masculine prodigy in the graceful art of ballet, a son trapped by traditional expectations, and a young man silently drowning in a truth he dare not speak.

    Haunted by an awakening attraction to the male bodies that share his stage and showers, Santiago’s disconnection from his own life deepens. His salvation—and his ruin—arrives in the form of Mateo Casales, a legendary forty-one-year-old former star hired as his private tutor. In the intimate silence of Mateo’s studio, rigorous correction evolves into profound connection. Mateo’s hands, which teach the language of movement, begin to speak a different, more dangerous dialect—one of recognition, desire, and a shared loneliness that echoes across a twenty-three-year chasm.

    The Male Variation is a sweeping, 54-chapter epic that charts the terrifyingly beautiful collision of two souls. Santiago, grappling with the seismic decision to come out in a society and a family that may reject him, finds in Mateo not just a teacher, but the first person who truly sees him. Mateo, a ghost haunted by the memory of a past love sacrificed to fear, is terrified that history is repeating itself, even as he’s irresistibly drawn to Santiago’s talent and vulnerability.

    Their love story unfolds in stolen moments: in the hallowed darkness of an empty theatre, in the rain-soaked sanctuary of a private home, and in the secret language of music and touch. But the outside world is relentless. From the claustrophobic gossip of the company locker room to the devastating, public fallout of an anonymous letter and a tabloid scandal, Santiago and Mateo are forced to navigate a labyrinth of professional ruin, familial heartbreak, and societal condemnation.

    At the heart of the storm, Santiago is handed the role of a lifetime: Don José in Carmen, a character destroyed by a forbidden, all-consuming passion. He must decide whether to hide or to channel his own forbidden love into a performance that could redeem or destroy him. Meanwhile, Mateo faces an impossible choice: deny their love to save Santiago’s soaring career, or stand proudly in the light, accepting the cost.

    This is more than a romance; it is a profound exploration of artistry, identity, and the courage it takes to live authentically. It delves into the eroticism of the dancer’s form, the intimate cartography of a shared soul, and the brutal, beautiful cost of choosing love over safety. Set against the vibrant backdrop of Buenos Aires and the demanding world of professional ballet, the novel is a symphony of emotion—tragic, romantic, erotic, and ultimately triumphant.

    For readers who crave deeply emotional, character-driven stories, The Male Variation offers an unforgettable journey. It is a testament to the power of love as the ultimate creative force and the most difficult, rewarding variation a person can ever dance.

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